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Stuck in limbo

As I have written several times here and on Facebook, I am enjoying not working. Spending this time with Jordan has been like a gift, an experience I never thought I would be given. And not having to get up in the morning or sit in traffic has been blissful. Plus since the weather has been nice more often than not, I am able to appreciate it at different points throughout the day, rather than for just 30 minutes during a lunchtime walk.

But I know this is temporary. And that is why I find myself looking over my shoulder, waiting for it to go away. A few months ago, I filled out some info for my 20-year high school reunion. I have yet to change/remove my occupation because I don't know what I would change it to. I don't think of myself as a stay-at-home mom; I mean I am one now, but the reality is I am unemployed and will hopefully be employed by September, when Jordan starts first grade.

Don't misunderstand, I have great regard for SAHMs. I think it is a much harder job than most others out there. I never thought I had the personality to be with my kid 24-7, which is kind of sad, I realize. But you know the kind of mom I mean, the perky, bubbly, fun one. I see these woman at play areas or at the park. Plus I am not really a fan of cooking, so that seemed problematic. But, as I have also mentioned, when I first had Jordan, I had the only income, so the point was moot.

This morning, I updated some personal information for the Penn State Alumni Association. I had to remove my work info, which was not really that painful. But when I came to a section about what I am doing now, I had no idea what to say. So I left it blank.

Every time something like this comes along, I am confronted with what I am putting off, which is finding a job. Hopefully I will be ready to do that soon. And by soon, I mean in June. Or July. Until then, I am going to enjoy this time as best as I can, while still looking behind me (or, more appropriately, ahead).

Go Pens!

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Chris H. said…
Keep enjoying! Breaks like these are few and far between. And you know the saying: No one looks back at the end of their life and says, "Gee, I wish I had worked more."
April 28, 2009 at 8:29 AM
Facie said…
Believe me, that saying has been at the front of my mind.

Yes, I do plan to keep enjoying.
April 29, 2009 at 11:00 AM
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