As I have written several times here and on Facebook, I am enjoying not working. Spending this time with Jordan has been like a gift, an experience I never thought I would be given. And not having to get up in the morning or sit in traffic has been blissful. Plus since the weather has been nice more often than not, I am able to appreciate it at different points throughout the day, rather than for just 30 minutes during a lunchtime walk.
But I know this is temporary. And that is why I find myself looking over my shoulder, waiting for it to go away. A few months ago, I filled out some info for my 20-year high school reunion. I have yet to change/remove my occupation because I don't know what I would change it to. I don't think of myself as a stay-at-home mom; I mean I am one now, but the reality is I am unemployed and will hopefully be employed by September, when Jordan starts first grade.
Don't misunderstand, I have great regard for SAHMs. I think it is a much harder job than most others out there. I never thought I had the personality to be with my kid 24-7, which is kind of sad, I realize. But you know the kind of mom I mean, the perky, bubbly, fun one. I see these woman at play areas or at the park. Plus I am not really a fan of cooking, so that seemed problematic. But, as I have also mentioned, when I first had Jordan, I had the only income, so the point was moot.
This morning, I updated some personal information for the Penn State Alumni Association. I had to remove my work info, which was not really that painful. But when I came to a section about what I am doing now, I had no idea what to say. So I left it blank.
Every time something like this comes along, I am confronted with what I am putting off, which is finding a job. Hopefully I will be ready to do that soon. And by soon, I mean in June. Or July. Until then, I am going to enjoy this time as best as I can, while still looking behind me (or, more appropriately, ahead).